Saturday, September 8, 2012


  • I have decided to not go forth with the half marathon this month. As much as it stinks to say that, I feel that if it took me registering and even paying for it to get my health and my blood pressure where it needed it be, then it was worth it. You're probably wondering why I'm not doing it but my explanation is nothing more than I'm just not ready. I feel like a total quitter, but my last race, which was my very first, wasn't the best for me. I didn't enjoy it, and I didn't get bit by the racing bug. I will, however be right there on the side lines cheering on my sis and my friends.

  • I'm loving Slacker Radio on the computer. I'm a regular user on my phone, but to have it playing while I'm blogging?? Totally digging it.

  • I finally booked our cabin for October! The hubs and I haven't been to Gatlinburg since our honeymoon which was almost 4 years ago. It has officially put me in the mood for Fall. I'm sure my sis and I will be taking a load full of pics!

  • Thank you so much for all your sweet words from my last post. Whether it was in person, through text, through meant the world to me. It was so hard posting something so personal, and even though it still hurts, we're making it.

  • Tonight the hubs and I are going to Chuy's! It's no doubt one of my favorite restaurants!

  • This morning I was heading out the door to make it my first day back to exercising. Thinking I could handle a little sprinkling rain, I drove 10 minutes up the road when mother nature decided to open the flood gates. I'm guessing the park will have to wait for me till later on or even tomorrow.

  • I love Kellie Pickler even more now since she shaved her head for her Bff. That right there shows unconditional love for someone. And she still looks gorgeous!

  • Well I guess I should get ready to do a little shopping. I'm in need of some new jeans! 

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

A Not So Easy Post...

August 4th I found out I was pregnant.

A very faint pink line, and the only one I took a picture of.

Clear Blue, First Response and EPT became my companion for the next several
days as I woke up early, and tested my first morning pee.

I got three positives which would make one believe, 
"yes, this is indeed for real"...

but the positives grew lesser and lesser, and I knew that 
this pregnancy was not progressing.

I was at work when everything happened.
Not knowing exactly what to do, I did the best I could 
and made it through the day till I got home.

There's not a day so far that goes by that I don't think about what if I
did this, or what if I did that? Or today I would be this far along.
(according to theBump since I subscribed to their baby feed)
which I now have unsubscribed to .
And I know that that is the quickest way
to make yourself go insane.

The last time I cried about it was on Saturday, when I talked to 
one of my best friends about it. The best way to describe it, is feeling like I had
a huge joke played on me. It started with happiness ending in sadness and tears.

Talking to my mom made it easier.
"We don't see it now, but everything happens in His perfect time."
 is what she says. And that's so true. And for awhile there,  even though I knew that,
 telling my mind and heart to know it seemed impossible.

Everything happens for reason, and I know what's meant to be..
will be.

Please, in my own way of asking this, please do not ask questions.

Sunday, August 12, 2012

Sunday's Ramblings

:: Can I get a capital D for not having a hammock when I need one?! The weather this weekend has been absolutely glorious! Yesterday, I was so worn out...I contemplated on setting up a little pallet outside on the deck just to be able to say I took advantage of this amazing temperature!

:: Big Brother is on tonight! What's everyone think about Janelle leaving??

:: Speaking of Big Brother...I so want Ian and Ashley to get together! They would be so adorable together! But then again, do Sho-mances ever really last? And I so did not realize Ian was only 21!

:: The pups have discovered a new liking. Dill Pickle chips (on accident) and Edamame beans.

And excuse the way I had to post this. I couldn't figure out how to save an Instagram photo to my comp.

:: Last weekend we celebrated my Nana's birthday. She has been such an impact in my life and our family all together. 

:: Running. (sigh)

:: I promise I don't have my iPhone because of photography apps. 


 Hope everyone has a wonderful evening!

Thursday, August 2, 2012

I Am:

I am a heterosexual, over weight female who loves her carbs.

I am a young woman who hates to voice up and apologize when the hubs and I get in to a tizzy.

I am a young woman who finds Channing Tatum one of the most attractive male species on the planet.

I am a person who loves her Coach and Dooney purses, and will buy two of the same shoes if I want.

I am a person who will spend half the day in bed if I want or can.

I am a person who will get so angry, it's like I go from zero to ten in minutes..only if I let it.

And lastly, I am a young woman who fights off that little green monster every time some one announces they are pregnant.

If you know them, I have admittedly confessed that I commit the seven deadly sins all the time.
Gluttony. Pride. Lust. Greed. Sloth. Wrath. and Envy.

What is the difference between what I do every single day and the couple up the road who in fact are two women and sleep together?

I have family members who are homosexual. They are happy, and in love...and although I may not desire the same for myself, at the end of the day I love them for who they are and not who they sleep with.

And if I'm called out and told I'm wrong, then it's what I'm willing to take.

(Oh and before I forget. I did in fact go to Chick yesterday...
sadly every other day too.)

First Race Review

I finally ran my first race last Saturday. It was a local race called the Goodlettsville Classic 4 mile.

For it to be my first race, I liked knowing that the course was pretty flat and very well shaded...just like the race information said.

A lot of people have said after the first race they do, "you get bit by the race bug".

I can honestly say I did not get bit. In fact, I can say I am dreading the big one in September, and will be so glad when it's over. Sorry to be Mrs. Debbie Downer, but it's true. I'm beginning to wonder if running is my thing or not.

Like with anything new, you live and you learn. Having dealt with tummy troubles on my own while running, I went light on what I ate the night before and the morning of. 6:30's dinner consisted of some hearty carbs (wheat pasta mixed with olive oil and seasoning), and a banana for breakfast that day.

By the end of the race, I felt as if I was going to face plant myself at any moment. The heat zapped what I had of me by mile 2.

I guess all I can say is that I know what I will do different come September, and that's what counts.

It's funny to me if I'm talking like this with a 4 miler, how I'm gonna be with a half marathon which is exactly 50 days away.

{face in palm.}

Monday, July 16, 2012

Sitting in my Teller Window...

..or cubicle as some peeps call it...

the song by Trace Adkins called "You're Gonna Miss This" came on the radio.

I'm a sucker for music..and relating lyrics to my own life.

I'm constantly wanting something...whether it's materialistic or something in my life emotionally.

Lately as in the past year, it's been starting a family.

Listening to the words..I immediately felt a calmness, almost like pure peace came over me.

'Cause You're gonna miss this
You're gonna want this back
You're gonna wish these days hadn't gone by so fast
These are some good times
So take a good look around
You may not know it now
But you're gonna miss this

For so long, I have wanted my husband and myself to be on the same exact page of starting the next chapter.

And of wanting that so badly, I admit.. it started to turn in to resentment, and frustration that he was never, ever going to be ready.

Last night, my hubs and I finally had one of those heart to heart talks on our way home from dinner.

Ya know, one of those talks that were long over due.

He told me that he wanted to be emotionally, physically, mentally, and even in a much better financial spot than now.

(Yes, I know you can never be financially ready, 
so please don't say that...I know.)

As he told me his times in his childhood of growing up with out a lot of things, he began telling me how he wanted to be able to provide for his family things he never had. He said he didn't want to have a baby just because it was the next thing to do.

And that right there...made me realize he was one, smart man.

Thank you, Lord.


Tuesday, July 10, 2012

Two Months...

Seriously, can you believe it?

I know my track record of blogging hasn't been consistent,
but when I originally got out of the habit of posting,
I didn't think I'd go this long without writing something.

And what's even sadder is that the times I actually logged in,
I could count on my hand.


Today I came across this at Tractor Supply.
Amazing what all this store has.

I originally went in there wanting these pretzels that only they have,
and found this. 

That place is like Target.

You go in for one thing, and end up buying everything.

The bad thing about exercising is the sweat part.
I sweat in places I never knew could sweat,
and apparently this stuff works miracles.

I'm anxious to try it!

And to prove the hubs and I are alive and well..
here's a picture from several weeks back.

Sorry Instagram friends, all my pics are basically from there.

Nashville finally got some rain.
And we could use a lot more.

This was on the side of the road close to home.
Obviously, it set fire some how.

So my very first race is the 28th of this month...
and as much as I tell myself  I'll do fine..
the more nervous I get.

It's a 4 miler and pretty flat.
Like my sis said,
"I gotta start somewhere!"

Oh and question:
Is Blogger really gonna change it's interface soon??
I can't take the new version.

Sunday, May 6, 2012

My Sunday Confessions

I have one huge confession today.

And it's a confession y'all may roll your eyes at, and I'm okay with it.

I think if anything through this whole experience of trying to get in shape and maintain some sort of consistent weight loss....

I'm not a nonstop runner.

I downloaded an app on my new iPhone (yippee...I crossed over!) called MapMyRun...and it got me at running a smidgen less than 5 miles. Friends, I felt as if I was lying. I didn't run the whole thing nonstop.

And I'm okay with that.

Because I busted my butt out there in this 90 degree heat, and it felt amazing knowing that I was sweating my tush out there.

Sure I power walked the best I could, and I ran when I wanted to...and knowing that I did that, well that in itself is achievement in my book.

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

Meat vs. No Meat

I meant to post about this sooner, but I haven't gotten the chance till now.

Well, I fibbed.

I should say I just haven't felt like it till now.

I mentioned in my confessions post that I was to the point where I was about over the fence with giving up meat.

Pork. Beef. Chicken..with only one or two kinds of fish.

My reasoning?

It started back at the beginning of last year when I watched on Netflix Food Inc.

If you haven't seen it, watch it. Educate yourself. And think about what it is that your putting in your body.

I know I'm sounding like a health freak, food conscious nutcase, but I'm honestly the farthest from that that one could be. Yes, I'm trying to lose weight, and be a bit more conscious about my food intake, but not to the extreme.

Anyways. To stay on track..this documentary made me want to run to the toilet and throw up.

For example, the conditions these chickens were living in were indescribable. Caged with dead ones, laying on their own feces and no to mention the diseases?

And it took just that to get drilled permanently in my brain.

I'm tired of thinking about it every time I go to eat a piece of chicken, or that steak. And not to mention that crispy bacon that I love. The taste, sure it's all delicious. But I can't handle the thoughts of how it went from being a live to sitting on my clean, white plate, and what all they have injected them with.

I guess you can say it's all in my head.

Sunday, April 29, 2012

My Sunday Confessions

1. I gave up my Target trip tonight. Can you believe it? Who does that? Apparently me. I was so tired, and the thought of going and finding nothing, well...I just wasn't in the mood for it.

2.  I'm so close to saying adios to my Carnivore lifestyle. Yes, I meant that. Chicken, Beef and Pork with the limit of some fish. I'm almost there. (I'm preparing a post)

3. I'm in vacation mode and it's only April. Well, I guess I shouldn't say that to anyone considering my vacay isn't till June. I'm just so ready to get away from reality.

4. I polished my nails at Buffalo Wild Wings tonight. In my defense, I was waiting on the hubs to get there. They do look pretty thanks to Essie's Pink A Boo.

5. I stayed up till after midnight last night watching YouTube video's of Dr. Phil interviews. I know. I'm lame...and to make it even more lame, I freaked myself out because I started watching the Casey Anthony interview he did with the parents.

6. I have nothing else.

Monday, April 23, 2012

Monday's Ten

1. So I won't lie and say that I haven't sat staring at the computer screen in hopes that a magical post would come pouring out of me. Did I seriously admit my doings to all of blog land? Apparently.

2. Since I made a commitment of not tanning in the beds...I have resorted to using those lovely fake lotion tans. And my opinion? I'm loving it. Well, Jergens that is. I like it because it's a gradual process. It's not like one day you're blindingly white one minute, and the next day you look like you've rolled in Doritos dust.

3. I'm planning on doing another Running Review post. And let me just tell ya folks, it's gonna be nothing spectacular. I really do need to step it up a notch. But more on that later.

4. And I wonder why I'm just maintaining my weight. It's because I give in to these little bad boys. They may be mini, but when you eat a whole pack, it's equivalent to the real deal. And, I occasionally have drank one or two Diet Dr. Pepper.

5. I'm starting to have that fever again. Why can't it just stay away?

6. So the hubs and I are thinking come June a stay-cation will be taking place. I have already come up with some at home tasks I want us to get done. The garage is at the top of the list.

7. I took this picture today of the ends of my hair. Jeez Louise, I need a trim.

8. Thank you, Lord for spell check. This whole post has squiggly lines in it.

9. Today marks the 14th anniversary of my mom's passing. Time passes by so fast, it's almost scary.

10. I guess dinner isn't going to start to kitchen I go! :)

Sunday, April 15, 2012

An Almost All Picture Post...

Try and say that post title ten times fast.

Now on to my compilation of randoms...

:: My newest addiction ::

:: Plum Seduction ::

:: My Love and I ::

:: Dustin and Rebecca...Mike's golfing buddy, and Rebecca's my shopping partner ::

:: Hotness. I seriously think this picture is so hot of my hubs.
And to think he's wearing a Wolf Pack shirt from the Hangover. ::

:: Glorious Tennessee sunshine ::

:: My In-Laws. Celebration Momma K's 50th Birthday ::

:: Fresh Flowers ::

- I'm finally getting around to showing some of my Easter pics in no particular order...
enjoy! -

:: After lunch snoozing. Father and Son ::

:: He has RISEN ::

:: Lazy Easter evening ::

:: My parents ::

:: Siblings ::

:: Sneaking a picture ::

:: 23 & up dyeing Easter eggs ::

Hope everyone has a wonderful start to the week!

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Back to Life, Back to Reality....

Doesn't that title make ya wanna sing that song by En Vogue??

Yea, me too.


I suck at blogging.

I'm coming to terms with that slowly but surely.

I finally realized today just how long it had been since I actually took the time out of my day to write a post.

And you know what it was??

When my readers started disappearing.

 So, here I am.

How was Easter for you all?

Mine was lovely.

In fact I wish I had the handful of pics that I took ready so I could share with y'all all the smiles that accumulated in my day.

Oh and how is my running??

Today was the first good run I had all week.

Tennessee has turned cold on us...hence the Under Armor ear warmer.

I made a status update earlier on Facebook about how annoyed I get at my husband sometimes when he says I need to get out there and run.

It irks me but I know he's doing it because he cares, and wants me to achieve my goals.

I love him so.

I know this isn't much for a post, but it's all I got for tonight.

Hope everyone has a wonderful evening!


Wednesday, March 28, 2012

Today's Laugh...

If this can't bring a smile 
 to your face,
then I don't know what will.


I still am trying to grasp the thought that Easter is so close!

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Brooks vs. New Balance

Like I said in one of my afternoon Facebook status'...
I love unexpected half days at work!
And what a great half day it was.
I met my husband for a quick lunch...
and then decided on a whim that I wanted another pair of running shoes.
For starters, I wanted something I could compare to my normal Brook's .

And secondly, I just wanted another pair.

I quickly snagged up New Balance's version 933's.

The reviews on these things have always been excellent.

And I love the classic look of them.

So the verdict?

Love them.

And I almost hate to say this...

but I think I might like them better than my Brooks.

Ouch. That hurt just saying that.

My reasoning?

These New Balance's retail at $145.

My price?

What we paid for my Brooks??

Way more than $40!

More importantly...

they were so stinkin' comfortable...

and roomy.

I know I'll wear them both...

thanks to my inserts I can change out.

Wasn't that a steal though??

I was so happy!

And look how gorgeous my route was today.

Oh how I love this time of year!!

Wednesday, March 21, 2012

The Butterfly Effect

There are a few people in my small circle of friends that actually run.

I have my sister, Amber who is a runner...

but as far as friends...there are only a few.

I have Bridget...who is basically like a running god to me.

She's probably laughing as she reads that, but in all seriousness...

she inspires me.

When I see her, she puts me in the mood to lace up my shoes and run...
that's the running vibe she gives off.

And I think as a beginner runner...I need that.

Since my announcement of participating in my first half marathon,

this girl has sent me several articles to help me through this process.

Today's touched me.

Like to the point of having to choke back tears.

It's like with anything you work hard for, and you focus your attention on.

When you feel at times that you're not where you should be, 
it can get frustrating, and very trying.

This article that was in Runner's World magazine,
hit me to my runner's core.

It's from back in 2009, when John Bingham wrote his

Right now I may just be getting my feet wet,

and learning that wearing those most popular running socks aren't for me.

But like John said...

"somewhere, sometime...this all will matter. And I have faith in that."

Relationship Advice

One of my bestie's posted this yesterday,
and along with tears and a smile...
I decided I just couldn't pass up sharing this with y'all.

Meet Herbert and Zelmyra Fisher of North Carolina.
They have been married 85 years (86 in May) and hold the Guinness World Record
for the longest marriage of a living couple and get this….
Zelmyra is 101 years old and Herbert is 104

Apparently the happily married couple teamed up with twitter this past Valentine’s Day
 to answer some relationship questions.

1. What made you realize that you could spend the rest of your lives together? Were you scared at all?
H & Z: With each day that passed, our relationship was more solid and secure.Divorce was NEVER an option – or even a thought.

2. How did you know your spouse was the right one for you?
We grew up together & were best friends before we married. A friend is for life – our marriage has lasted a lifetime

3. Is there anything you would do differently after more than 80 years of marriage?
We wouldn’t change a thing. There’s no secret to our marriage, we just did what was needed for each other & our family.

4. What is your advice to someone who is trying to keep the faith that Mr. Right is really out there?
Zelmyra: Mine was just around the corner! He is never too far away, so keep the faith – when you meet him, you’ll know.

5. What was the best piece of marriage advice you ever received?
Respect, support & communicate with each other.
Be faithful, honest & true.Love each other with ALL of your heart

6. What are the most important attributes of a good spouse?
Zelmyra: A hard worker & good provider.The 1920s were hard,but Herbert wanted & provided the best for us.I married a good man!
7. What is your best Valentine’s Day memory?
Zelmyra: I cook dinner EVERY day.Herbert left work early & surprised me – he cooked dinner for me! He is a VERY good cook!
Herbert: I said that I was going to cook dinner for her & she could relax – the look on her face & clean plate made my day!

8. You got married very young – how did u both manage to grow as individuals yet not grow apart as a couple?
“Everyone who plants a seed & harvests the crop celebrates together” We are individuals, but accomplish more together.

9. What is your fondest memory of your 85-year marriage?
Our legacy: 5 children, 10 grandchildren, 9 great-grandchildren, and 1 great-great grandchild.

10. Does communicating get easier with time? How do you keep your patience?
The children are grown, so we talk more now. We can enjoy our time on the porch or our rocking chairs – together.

11. How did you cope when you had to be physically separated for long periods of time?
Herbert: We were apart for 2 months when Z was hospitalized with our 5th child. It was the most difficult time of my life. Zelmyra’s mother helped me with the house and the other children, otherwise I would have lost my mind.

12. At the end of bad relationship day, what is the most important thing to remind yourselves?
Remember marriage is not a contest – never keep a score. God has put the two of you together on the same team to win

13. Is fighting important?
NEVER physically! Agree that it’s okay to disagree, & fight for what really matters. Learn to bend – not break!

14. What’s the one thing you have in common that transcends everything else?
We are both Christians & believe in God.
Marriage is a commitment to the Lord.
We pray with & for each other every day

I love that quote...
"Learn to bend it, not break it."

Source via

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Itty Bitty's Edition...

I'm that girl that will walk back in forth numerous times
in the children's department of Target,
ooing and awing over the itty bitty outfits.

I'm crazy when it comes to those things.

And that's why when I'm on Pinterest,
I've been consumed with it lately,
I can't help but do the same thing on there.






I love this little plaid number.
That little whale melts my heart.


And this little sailor's dress??




So for you with kiddos...
what's your favorite place to 
shop for your itty bittys??

Sunday, March 18, 2012

And My Face Was Beet Red...

To date...
my run today was the earliest one I've done thus far.
I loved knowing it would be done for today,
and I wouldn't have to think about it till tomorrow.

Going in to it I thought this will be easy peasy compared to the 
one's in the freezing cold, or in mid afternoon when the heat is smothering.

My breathing was off a little, and my heart was pounding so hard,
I felt as if I could hear it.
Today was the first time I thought I would get sick.
But I didn't.
I finished my cool down lap and headed straight to my car
for my water.
And as I sat there with the car running, air blowing in my face...
and Billie Myer's "Kiss the Rain" going...
I prayed to God.

My prayer was compassionate and was honest.

I asked the Lord to help me stay positive in the training.
I asked Him to help me stay focused on what I had achieved so far,
rather than how far I had to go.
And then I remembered that little Pinterest pin from last night...


All in Good Fun...

come next weekend...
I will be rockin' the 80's full force.
{or at least I hope to be}

My company teller banquet has a themed get together 
every year in which they go all out, 
and it's a huge ordeal.

Last year was Western wear.
{how convenient, Nashville}

besides finding this hideous looking thing
at the local Goodwill...

I have nothing.

So for some ideas and inspirations, I turn to Polyvore.

Rolling Stone

All Saints


Why can't I find pieces like 
this anywhere??!

 Oh..and don't worry hubs
and fam..I haven't took up smoking
or have I gotten pierced.