Friday, May 22, 2015

Taking the Next Step

It's crazy to think that August will be one year since the hubs and I officially started trying for a baby.

While one year is nothing compared to some couples, it's felt like an eternity to me.

This past weekend we experienced our second miscarriage in our marriage.

After five positive pee sticks and one confirmed blood test, we thought we were on our way to finally becoming parents. But obviously, sometimes things don't turn out the way one would think.


I try not to question God much, but over the last several days I have.

I know it's not what we are supposed to do, but some things in life just don't make sense. Good people dying, children with cancer, people who just shouldn't be fertile, are. The list goes on and on.

So what's the next step for us?

Well, according to my beloved doctor who I trust so much...the issue for me isn't getting pregnant. I can get pregnant, but she's thinking since my levels of Progesterone were low, that's causing the lining in my uterus to be on the weaker side. Therefore, it's not fertilizing properly.

Starting next month I will be taking these little gems.



I've decided I want to utilize my blog to keep track of this journey to parenthood.

When we finally have that baby in our arms, I'll be able to look back and remind myself there's not one thing the Lord puts upon us, that we can't endure.




Prayers appreciated!




Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Don't Let the Bitterness Steal the Sweetness

I found this while looking at Pinterest earlier, and it hit a nerve.


I have had someone I love more than life, tell me this a time or two lately.

To ease up, not be so serious all the time...and I'm trying.

I realize I have hung on to things that happened in my childhood that I have never, ever told anyone except a few people.

I lost a parent in the middle of my teenage years.

And I now put up walls to distance myself among certain people I love because I am bitter. I'm bitter over words and situations that have happened over years time. Memories that I know have caused me to be the way I am towards people I care about.

Situations that should have been the happiest of my life, are now overshadowed with just plain out negativity.

If there is one thing that I always want to be is that person I know I am.

I am sweet.
I am caring.
And who I don't want to turn into is that person who loves drama, negativity, and who puts a front on for the world to see.

So from this day forward I'm gonna ease up, and not let the bitterness steal the sweetness.

Monday, April 14, 2014

Second Race Review

This past weekend I did something I thought I would never do again...run another race.

The hubs and I joined in with some work employees and did the Purity Moosic City Dairy Dash. The name makes it sound like we were running around in a field of cows.

I honestly can say I felt proud of myself.

Almost two years ago when I was close to two hundred and twenty pounds, I decided to sign up for my very first race. I had no idea what I was doing. I struggled the entire time gasping for air constantly having to stop to walk. And not to mention I came in second to last.

This time I ran the entire race, paced myself....and I crossed that line almost 35 minutes later.



No I wasn't the fastest, but I didn't stop, and I kept pushing through the constant aches and pains of thinking my legs were gonna give out.

I was so proud of my babe. Eight and a half minute miles and about twenty five minutes later, he crossed the finish line.

I told him when we were done we should do a race every year.


 I love you babe. 
We will always be each 
others biggest cheerleaders.
 

Saturday, March 29, 2014

Stomach Bug Infested Vacay with a Side of Fun!

Last Friday, the hubs and I ventured out on what would be an 8 day vacation of sun, sand, love and laughter.

Our first destination was Destin Beach, Florida. One of the many places I would love to move to. Several of his cousins, Aunts, Uncles and a set of grand parents live there, and we always have such a great time every time we visit.






My favorite picture of all time. It pretty much explains our marriage. This guy can aggravate me and make me so mad, but then bring me so much happiness like no other person in the world.





Sunday we left and headed down to central Florida to my hometown of Winter Haven. It's strange because I always said I would never want to move down there because it's so hot and sticky when it's Summertime. But every time I'm down there, I never, ever want to leave. It's a strange connection I feel I will always have.

We stayed with my Aunt and Uncle who I absolutely love. Believe it or not, this was the first time the hubs had ever met them. In past times...the one time I had gone down there, my sister and I flew down for the week. He loved them!

Monday night was when the stomach bug hit. The hubs got it first. The poor thing suffered through it for four long days. (and stubborn is his middle name. he didn't want to go to the doctor at all.)

Wednesday morning my Aunt and I decided to go pick some strawberries. I loved it so much, and they were delicious!






We ate at the famous Andy's Drive-In where my parents would head to eat after their long days in high school.

All I kept thinking was "my mom could have sat in this exact booth".



By Wednesday night...it was my turn. I was up at least every hour or two, and it was not fun.

Finally, after a visit at the walk-in clinic, a trip to Publix...Sprite and crackers was what filled my our bellies for the rest of the day.

Over all we had a blast. Hanging out with my Aunt and Uncle was the best entertainment, and we couldn't have asked for anyone better to take care of us.



We got home last night, and seeing our fur babies was the best ending to such a sick vacation! We are so thankful to be feeling better!